"Things can fall apart, or threaten to, for many reasons, and then there's got to be a leap of faith. Ultimately, when you're at the edge, you have to go forward or backward; if you go forward, you have to jump together." - Yo -Yo Ma
My daughter turned one last week. She has five teeth, about to start walking any day now and her favorite thing to do is wave. Not just any old sloppy wave, mind you. She's got a wave even the Queen would be envious of. It's pretty hilarious. So, last week as my little Queen turned one, I reflected on the day she was born. A day I jumped forward with a little faith.
But let's rewind. At twenty weeks into my pregnancy, my husband and I were told that our little girl had a condition called clubbed feet. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's a common malformation of the feet. Basically, the feet are turned in sharply and up so that it seems the ankle is what is used to walk with.
I can still remember the anxiety, the terror, the tears as we were told the unfortunate news. But the worst part was that we had no answers. The doctors could not tell us how bad her feet were, they didn't know why this happened and they were not sure if she was going to have other problems. I had no idea what to expect or how to fix it. My baby had clubbed feet and all I could do was wait. Wait for the unknown. For me, there's nothing scarier than that.
But let's rewind. At twenty weeks into my pregnancy, my husband and I were told that our little girl had a condition called clubbed feet. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's a common malformation of the feet. Basically, the feet are turned in sharply and up so that it seems the ankle is what is used to walk with.
I can still remember the anxiety, the terror, the tears as we were told the unfortunate news. But the worst part was that we had no answers. The doctors could not tell us how bad her feet were, they didn't know why this happened and they were not sure if she was going to have other problems. I had no idea what to expect or how to fix it. My baby had clubbed feet and all I could do was wait. Wait for the unknown. For me, there's nothing scarier than that.
At first, that fear got the best of me. I quickly got myself stuck in the quick sand of worry and panic over an outcome I could not control. Until one day, I decided I couldn't live like this anymore. I pulled myself out of the sand by doing the things I had control over. I found specialists, set up appointments and read anything I could get my hands on. Then, I did the only thing left to do. I decided to have faith. Faith in my little girl. I knew she was going to have a bumpy start, but fear was not going to help anyone. So, I took a giant leap and chose, for the sake of my baby, to jump forward with a little faith.
Unfortunately, we all know life is not always easy. But it's how you deal with the challenges that counts. Not every noodle you throw is going to stick perfectly and sometimes, it can feel overwhelming when you have no control over it. But remember, you do have control over how you decide to proceed. You can give into the quick sand or you can take the leap.
My daughter had a tough start, but with faith in our hearts, she is now cruising with her feet firmly planted on the floor. Now, when the noodles fall, I just take one look at my little Queen waving with her toothy smile, and I'm reminded to keep jumping forward every day with a little faith.
Unfortunately, we all know life is not always easy. But it's how you deal with the challenges that counts. Not every noodle you throw is going to stick perfectly and sometimes, it can feel overwhelming when you have no control over it. But remember, you do have control over how you decide to proceed. You can give into the quick sand or you can take the leap.
My daughter had a tough start, but with faith in our hearts, she is now cruising with her feet firmly planted on the floor. Now, when the noodles fall, I just take one look at my little Queen waving with her toothy smile, and I'm reminded to keep jumping forward every day with a little faith.
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